1 Month Experience attending a Christian Church

July 27, 2018


Wow, I can't believe it has now been 4 weeks of learning about God. I say 4 weeks vs 4 Sundays because every day consisted of a question I asked Carlos about "the King". It wasn't just that Sunday that I was curious, it was every day.

 Here's a recap of my religion background and my opinion on my first time visit. I sure can say a bit has changed since then. Nothing like my heart, soul, and personality. But more of this urge on wanting to learn more. I'm lucky that I have Carlos, maybe it's him being a Christian but he seems to have all the answers.

I find myself to already include Church in my routine. Like every Sunday I know it's time to wake up at 7AM and get dressed so we can hit the 9AM session. And yes, it takes 2 hours for us to get ready and make the drive. More on that later. What's weird is that I don't want to stay up late on Saturday night knowing we have church the next morning. You can say this can be anyone, but y'all, this is for Church. I can always just sleep in and skip it but I don't want to. I caught myself doing laundry on a late Friday night just because I didn't want to do it Saturday night. This is a big deal!

Uhhh what's going on?

I haven't heard what Carlos thinks of me actually looking forward not complaining about attending church. I wonder if he's happy that I'm coming around? That I have questions? That I talk about what I learned that morning? THAT I'M INTERESTED IN WANTING A BIBLE OF MY OWN?!

I'm telling you...change.

Maybe I think I need this, as someone that suffers from anxiety and depression (hey, sounds like another Chai Chat post on a rainy day), just maybe I feel like I need some type of 'peace'. Now I haven't changed, I'm still Yachy. I'm still the person that likes sex, curse like a sailor, hates the people that did me wrong, and likes to drink and get drunk...I'm not perfect. But if I want to give my life to Jesus, am I supposed to just stop being who I am? I like to curse, it's what makes me, me. Will Jesus be upset that I curse? That I'm having sex before marriage? That I support the gays?

Obviously I have a lot to learn, the thing that gets me is that I actually want to learn. In the meantime, since this is a personal blog containing daily vibes, I'm thinking of making this post into a series? Unsure what I will call it but instead of posting on Fridays, I think I'll post later in the evenings on that Sunday and talk about what I learned.

Feel free to ignore my Sunday posts.  



2 comments:

  1. Thank you for sharing such a wonderful and personal post! I would love to hear more on your continuing experience of attending church. I grew up as a christian and going to church every Sunday, which I still do to this day and I love being part of my church family! So I am very interested to see where this experience leads you! Gods blessings to you!

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    1. Thank you Inna! The church we attend is very welcoming. It's really hard to post something personal, especially about faith. I appreciate your read and story!
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